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They Are True Muslims

semalam interview tetiba cuak bila dengar ada yang kena tanya pasal syria. current issue kan, tapi aku bukan tau sangat pun. maklumlah paper tak baca sangat, dah tu bukak youtube nak tengok korea, bukak fesbuk nak stalk2 orang bukak twitter takreti guna pulak -.-', n tak bukak intenet pun boleh melagha tengok running man. 

aku pun sebenarnya malas nak amik tau pasal benda ni. yelah bukan sebab tak kisah, tapi kalau bukak cerita pasal benda ni je dah boleh nangis sampai pengsan  *over pulak*. benda2 kekejaman, tak berperikemanusiaan ni, aku rasa takda orang yang suka unless memang dah hati dah tetutup langsung, hitam kotor, legap.tapi masalahnya kena tahu jugak. hei lenkali klo tak nak amik tau jangan mengaku kita Muslim okay *lalu aku berkata pada diri sendiri*

then aku pun try la klik2 kat link2 budak2 post kat fesbuk tu. ahh sudahhh .bila tengok video kejam2 dorang maen seret2 orang dengan kereta, tanam hidup2, tembak sampai berkecai2, aku rasa tak layak gila nak bergelak ketawa kat mesia ni. sedangkan kat sana tu saudara sendiri, dan kita tak mampu buat apa2 selain doakan dorang. tak habis lagi video tu aku dah cross awal2. satgi banjir susah pulak. sakit weyy sakittt, tengok pun sakit apatah lagi dorang yang rasa sendiri

sedih kan tengok saudara kita dekat syria sana kena belasah macam dorang bukan manusia je. aku pun tak tahu kalau aku aku tempat dorang, mampu ke tak aku ucap kalimah syahadah dan rela kena tanam hidup2, dah la siap ada kamera buat broadcast lagi tengok camna kau mati. entah sanggup ke tidak aku mengaku masih Islam dalam keadaan yang kejam tak terkata tu. haihh i dont understand how come human can be so unhuman by losing their humanity 

dah tu setakat nanges2 kat sini pun tak guna jugak. apa kita boleh buat? kurangkan buat dosa, ingat mati, insaflah cepat sebelum tetiba mesia pun jadik camtu, iman kita goyah dan tanak mengaku siapa Allah pada kita. Nauzubillah 

they have proved theyre real Muslims, how bout us? 

kawan2 lets pray together, for them and for us too :'(

cinta dan airmata

cinta tak kesampaian.

kecewa sungguh menatap wajahnya di astro awani tadi. sia2 hari2 aku bangun pagi nak tengok muka dia kat tb baca berita. hari2 aku mimpi dia sebut nama aku masa akad. tapi y??? y her? y u betray me? n my forever alone love?

takpa la ashwad. nanti kat syurga kita kawin eh :')

kahwin elok2. kalau nak carik yg 2nd jangan lupa roger2 federer saya di sini <3

Wordless Wednesday #1

Apabila seorang lelaki melafazkan akad nikah, bermaksud dia telah berjanji bukan sahaja dengan ibu apa dan dirinya, malah dengan Allah untuk menjaga dan menyayangi perempuan yang menjadi isterinya dengan sepenuh hati, bukan menyakiti dan menzaliminya.

Abang, i nak try jaga hati ni baik2 untuk u. U jaga hati u baik2 untuk i jugak eh J

sweetnya aku. haha

we make our choices, then our choices make us

people are dealing with choices everyday.

what clothes to wear before going to class, which shoes fit my dress today, which places should i have my dinner, and which lauk to be picked, blablablabla and even whether to take shower or not >.<

they do happen everyday. 

for some people, its just a normal thing that they can deal with it easily. they can make their own decisions, without other people to give opinions, and without bothering what other people will say about things they make up in their life.

to be honest i really hate making decisions. yeah im a grown up girl, but up until now, i never know how to deal with this kind of things. im afraid i will choose a wrong decision and regret it for the whole of my life.

i know  if i lie to others im lying to myself, and that's a problem. BIG problem.

in the morning, i will spend almost half an hour in front of the mirror, figuring out what clothes to be put on. during lunch at the cafe, i will ask Alfa for her opinion about what should i eat today. or else i will just eat the same lauk i picked up yesterday or the day before yesterday or the day before3 that. in the evening, Fathiah will choose the kedai that we will have our dinner that day. almost in every single things, people around me have to help me to make decisions. thats the use of friends kan kan kan?

its pretty annoying right?

the same goes when i have to deal with stress. seriously its killing me. but i dont really know whether i have to express it, share with someone or just let them buried in myself. and at last i will just laugh. and smile. pretending like i got A or B in my tests or exams. in fact i got the lowest mark in class.

yeah im good at pretending. thats a hidden skill isnt it?

i did learnt about critical thinking during my first semester, but it didnt seems to help at all.

as everyday passes i still trying to find the best medicine for this weird disease. maybe its still okay for now (absolutely not when i found it hard to choose answers for questions in exams -.-' ) but i know if i didnt try to find the cure, i will found myself lost in the future. (aku rasa ada masalah bila nak pilih hasben nanti) 

dear my future husband, please bear with me. after we get married you will have to make all the decisions for me, for us and for our children :)

oh ya i think i didnt perform really well during ielts this morning. listening i hate u

Feel like crying my heart out right now. But is it really for no reasons?

Seryesly nothing bad happened today. but its like something is bothering me inside here.

if its just nothing, why should i feel like this?

heyyaa lets drop the question mark here. my Biology is waiting

o ya i found out this last night. nanti nak belajar buat ^^

hey congratulation
im happy for you too.
goodbye :)

Raya.

 malam2 raya macamni aku menyibukkan diri dngn bmaen game sudoku. rasanya macam, takde lah sedih sangat pun. cuma aku malas sangat nak tlong mak ngn akk aku kemas masok kuih dlm balang mop tukar langsir alas meja bla bla bla.

act aku rasa, kan elok kalau sambut sederhana tak payah semangat sangat? no i mean bukan tak payah semangat tu, just paham kan sederhana tu camna. lagipun mmg kuih raya kerepek sume tu aku yang makan. tapayah letak dalam balang cantik2 pun tak apa.

ahh lonely gila malam2 raya macam ni.

nak main bunga api. nak main mercun. nak pasang pelita. nak sedara mara ramai2. nak makan kuih raya satu balang. nak bangun pagi terus dapat duit raya. 

nak nenek. nak atuk. 

tak rasa raya aa.

-_-

Someone can be so mean and harsh but actually they doesn’t meant to be so

Someone can act all pure and innocent but the truth is so much different from the created sides

Someone can looked really perfect in all ways but actually they got a lot of weak sides that no one knows

Someone can be really cool and calm but nobody hears that they are screaming inside

Someone seems so happy and cheered up in their everyday life, but actually they got too much things to be worried

Someone may look tough and strong from their appearance, but actually they have a fragile heart that can collapse easily

Someone can still laugh and smile in their hard days, but actually they are suffering inside

Sometimes, sadness is not something that can be shared. 

dah tau dah.

what u give u get back.
ahah kan dah kena sekali.selalu buat kan orang kan dah rasa pedih.
takpe im not serious. tak terasa tak terasa. langsung. uh tipuu okay aku kalah. dia perfect. aku. just a LOSER.
thankyou. im not a doll. stop playing with me.

puasa2!kamon! :D

Ramadhan.

azam puasa tahun ni.

1. _____________

2. _____________

3. _____________

4. _____________

5. _____________

sume azam rahsia. heheh gedik sungguh daku

puasa penuh2, terawih  pun penuh2 jugak la eh. 

ibu ayah adik bradik sedara mara cikgu mekgu kawan2 maaf kalau buat silap. kot mati tengah2 bulan pose ni mana tau kann. seronok jugak tapi sayang amal tak cukup lagi nk mati awal. -.-

insyaAllah, this Ramadhan will be better than be4.:')

Welcome.

its coming nearer.
nak puasa penuh. nak terawih penuh. nak nak nak sangat!  aminn :)

trying to get my body n soul ready. i hope this Ramadhan will be better than the past Ramadhan n wont be the last. :'(

*azam sampingan, turun sploh kg. heheh

everything is in His hands.

'bila rindu hadir tanpa dipinta, tiada kata mampu meluah bicara. kadangkala rindu itu mengundang hiba, membangkit sebak, mengukir air mata. manusia itu fitrahnya, dalam degup jantung dan nadi mereka, ada rasa dalam jiwa yang bisa membuat tiap patah bicara terhenti seketika, saat hati disentuh kasih-Nya, saat terasa halusnya getar di dada.'

sometimes i force myself to forget the past. n lead a new life. but the memory keep playing flashback movies, and each time i try to erase them, the darker side of me reveal the true herself, n i just can back off, leaving everything in His hands.

we are not same.

the past is past. but how can i stop looking to the back, when i realized that the person i left behind was me? yeah maybe the old me, but she is still me. n only Him can make me stop thinking about her forever.

sekali sekala  berpuitis  takde kau kesah  punya.

another tears cant stop flowing down.

Ya Allah, please hold my heart.

kawan saya kata mujahadah itu manis dan indah. tapi saya rasa pahit. saya masih belum nampak di mana manisnya.

im too afraid to make a step forward. :'(

seryesly its just like im the oldest among my siblings.

ive once grabbed it, but a few minutes later, i let it go.

tears.

seriously a good cry will relieve stress n emotional build-ups. 

n can make u smile brighter than before.

then, just cry out loud.

ini suara hati namanya.

wooo lapa tak dinner ptg td! ingt bubur si budak yg baru blaja msk tu bole btahan smpai mlm, tapi maghrib je dah habis hadam. hampeh btul. anyway thanx a lot nanti bg la lauk bes sikit udang galah ke ciken cop ketam sambal telur bistik ikan pari bakar rendang ayam itik... ... .. .er demand sgt ke?

walaupun begitu bbur tersebt telah memberi impak yg agk besar. walaupun aku tak reti masak, aku still rasa tercabar sebab org bukan sama jantina dah bole masak. hampeh kene blaja jugak niii. -.-'

jadi resepi pertama saya yang menjadi idaman ialah macam bese NASI GORENG.

alah tak pon aku nk try CEKODOK je. 

mak aku masak sedap kot! jgn pndang sblah mata!

Uuu ckp pasal mak, that reminds me of MOTHER'S DAY. :')

semalam ke 2 ari lepas masa nek bas nak g intec, bleh plak pacik bas pasang IKIM dah tu de ceramah ke talk ke hape ntah pasal hari ibu. dah satu pasal pagi-pagi buta dah meleleh. ciss segan pulak awek sblah tu tgk aku kesat2 mata. woi pasal mak kot jangan ah heartless sgt tak nanges!

so sebab aku segan nak bg ucapan panjang2 kat mak aku tu, so takpelah better kat sini je kot.nak jiwang sekejap.

ni cover kad. sila buka.

Ibu, i hope that ure in the pink of health (ayat skema informal letter). 

thank u 4 giving me a chance to be ur daughter.

walaupun ima rasa ramai gila mak yg lagi baik kat dunia ni, tapi ima rasa bertuah ima dapat sorang mak macam ibu. walaupun banyak bebel n suka marah2, tapi ima tau ibu sayang ima. kan2? 

ibu ampunkan ima slalu cakap kasar, selalu buat ibu tersinggung, malas nak dengar ibu cakap or bercerita, selalu bgn lambat biar ibu masak sorang2 kat dapur, biar ibu basuh kain tak tolong pun, degil nak panjat gunung jugak, tanak dngar nasihat.. er n banyak lagi.

but the worst i never be by ur side when ure crying. because i cant bear looking at u wiping ur tears.

o i ll cry too.

i know one day if i didnt hear ur voices again, i will be the one who regret the most.

ibu plis dont leave me b4 i have chances to be with u on ur old days.

pliss stay awake until i knee on u wearing my stethoscope and my white coat. 

wuuwuu yang ni tacing lebih T.T

okay lets stop now b4 aku nangis tak berenti satu malam.

ibu ibu ibu ibu ibu

i love u ibu n i want u to be together in Jannah with ayah. be a gud wife okay.

i love you again. but i regret why i cant say it directly. stupid daughter. 

teringin nk jadi ibu dan anak macam ni . mcm close gila tapi aku dgn ibu tak ngam sgt macam tu. so mmg kne blame diri sendiri lah.

Aghhh homesick!

deep in here.

I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

And I've learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

Dear, it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?

the best deddy.

apasal aku rasa tacing tiba2 ni?
aku rasa apart gila denga kau. rasa miss gila kat every single seconds that we spent together.
dono y. but that feeling keep reminding me the picture of you.
seryes. aku rindu kau.
ur words. ur jokes. you.
now aku need kau weh.
sangat2. ure my best buddy kan? :'(

come back. please.